Two very long days at sea make me realize that a two week cruise is a bit too long especially when traveling alone. The solo travelers have formed their little cliques and since my interests don't include "hooking up" or boozing until you're face down on the table, I'm no longer included. I've been reading a lot and staring out at the waves. I've enjoyed the company of the couples at my dinner table and have found them to be very interesting, but they go their own way after dinner. I feel too conspicuous sitting alone for the evening activities so I retreat to my cabin early and read. I will definitely make an effort to be active in the Windermere travel club so as to avoid traveling alone in the future; just having someone to go to the activities with would make traveling much more pleasurable. I've enjoyed the ports of call and my excursions were all worthwhile. Tomorrow morning, we dock in Singapore and I'm looking forward to my tour there; it is supposed to be a very clean ultra modern city with amazing botanical gardens, the largest in the world for orchids. I'll have an early evening since I'll need to get up around 3:00 am in order to make a 5:45am flight to Hong Kong followed by a 15 hour flight to Chicago and the final leg into Orlando Monday evening. I'm really looking forward to getting home and seeing my family; I've thought of all of you throughout this trip and wished many times that it could have been a shared experience. My anger with Dennis persists and has only been intensified by seeing all the retired couples on board holding hands, laughing and having a good time, making me continue to question what was so bad about our life that made Dennis choose to desert me after 45 years together? We had been through so much, the loss of a child, financial hardships, times of unemployment, surgeries, not to mention, a million wonderful times. What were his expectations? Sometimes I think I'm going mad looking for answers that can only come from Dennis and of course then the problem would be - are the answers only more lies? This trip has not helped me resolve those issues, but it has shown me that I can manage on my own, which is little consolation since I have no choice.